SWEET 16: Insight on How I am at Peace with Myself

Darlings! Today's my Sweet 16! It also happens to fall on a Tuesday-- posting days, so that means I get to spend it doing what I enjoy doing: blogging. I also get to go watch Hamilton!!! This post today will be much of a reflection. I find it best to look back in order to help me move forward. This is how I keep peace on the inside while being a teenager. One more thing I'd like to say before I go on is a thank you for your support. You reading this gives me much joy and pleasure! Lots of love to you!

This is the only time I can joke about being 61 before I am actually 61.

Reflection

When growing up, I believe that you are born into a mold that is shaped by forces outside your control, but then, you must get to a point where you break free from it and choose the forces that you want to affect your life. That's what has been happening to me for a short while, leading up to this day. I think it is perfectly summed up in this quote from the new trailer of Rocketman, the movie based on Elton John's life. A character whose name is not mentioned says to Elton:

"You gotta kill the person you were born to be, in order to become the person you wanna be."

I feel as though I am taking form of this quote and maybe it first began with the bob. I cut my hair short, because I was tired of being this version that everyone wanted me to be or known me to be. I wanted to feel change in my life like some rebirth, so I changed my hair by impulse to mimic the look of my favorite actress, Lucy Boynton. My tastes and opinions and other people's taste and opinions began to diverge, and I even got to know myself better which is a great feeling. I feel more confident that my personality more suits me. I am becoming the person that I've always wanted to be.

Today, I am proud to say that I blog, write more in other ways, act, dance, etc., and though, I am not the best and no where near it, it does not phase me one bit. I will reference another quote. It is the one in my "About Me" section on my homepage:

"To live for some future goal is shallow. It is the sides of the mountain which sustains life, not the top. Here's where things grow." -Robert M. Pirsig

It may be hard to understand at first, but the author is trying to explain that trying to be the best and only living for that one purpose is a disservice to one self. Life is about enjoying and being better than the person you were yesterday. I wake up every morning ready to do more and more. The only person I am trying to one-up is myself. I know it is cliche, but cliches are sometimes what they are, because they are also true.

Blogging keeps me writing which is very important in my life and to me personally. It keeps me on my toes but also grounded and with the perspective of my own thoughts and opinions. A blog is like a catalogue or timeline of the changes in my life.

Reality

The future is one thing that I think about constantly, because it's always going to be there ahead of me. I hope within the times that follow I become more established and more in control, because after all, I am the captain of my own ship. One thing that I wish for myself and for you all is a happy and fabulous life, because who cares how many birthdays you have if you can't enjoy the days between. Here's to the future! -Katelyn Cao

"The most important thing is to live a fabulous life. As long as it's fabulous, I don't care how long it is." -Freddie Mercury